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First Signs

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Wed, 27 Aug 2008 04:17:00 +0000

First Signs

Just wanted to post a sample pic from my latest update. See the full set of 111 pictures in my members area.

So far the hormones are treating me well. It's only been 5 days now but I do feel a bit calmer inside if that makes any sense. Especially a half hour or so after I take the estrogen. I'm on fairly low doses to start out with; 2mg of estradiol and 50 mg spironolactone once a day. I'll probably ramp up the doses in a few months depending on how things go.

There are a few physical changes I've noticed so far. My nipples feel a little itchy at times and seem to be a bit red and slightly swollen. My body odor is changing. My arm pits used to have a distinct musky smell to them. They smell different to me now. My skin does seem to be getting more sensitive to touch and temperature. I know things like breast growth take at least a few months to really take off and don't happen overnight. But it's pretty exciting to see and feel some of these things starting to happen.

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Exciting News!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Sun, 24 Aug 2008 00:25:00 +0000

Exciting News

Well it's been a pretty busy and exciting week around here. On Thursday I went over to Seattle to add to my collection a the sperm bank. On Friday I had a laser hair removal session on my face and neck. It will probably be the last full session I have. I'll just have to go in for touch ups now and then. The big news though is that I started hormone therapy on Friday too. So I expect to experience a few changes in the near future. Exciting times to say the least.

I also had a pretty awful experience on Friday involving alcohol. I quit drinking back in November and had managed to remain sober for a good 6 months. The past few months I've been slipping though and had been trying my best to hide it from Trixie. On Friday I ended up drinking too much. Nothing terrible happened other than the embarrassment of being confronted by a loved one, but the potential was there. I realize now that I need help if I plan on staying sober and that having a drink every now and then just isn't going to cut it for me. So I've started attending AA meetings to help get me back on track. Overall I think it's going to be a good thing. At least I'll be able to start HRT out on the right foot.

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Beach Pictures

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Sun, 17 Aug 2008 00:21:00 +0000

Beach Pictures

Here's a few pics from this weeks update taken during our trip out to the Washington coast earlier this week:

I'll be posting the full set on Sunday so technically I guess that makes it next weeks update.

We had a great time while we were there. The weather was mostly overcast and foggy, but we did get a few sun breaks. And it was warm enough that we were able to get out and frolic in the water for awhile. Not that we wouldn't have otherwise . . . it just made it a bit nicer.

We took lots of long walks, took some nudey pictures and ate lots junk food(mmmmmmm . . . spicey pickled sausage and Zotz!). The last night we stayed at a campground roasted hot dogs and marshmallows over an open fire. I also had a chance to test out my new camp stove which worked great for hot drinks.

I noticed a little more color in my face when we got home. I think it looks great but, unfortunately I have a laser hair removal appointment next week. So it's not so great for that. I even wore sunblock most of the time. I think it must have washed out in the water though. Oh well, it should fade out some by next week.

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A Little Update

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Sat, 02 Aug 2008 01:20:00 +0000

A Little Update

Here's a sample shot from my latest picture set. Gotta love them stripes ;-)

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I know at times I'm not very clear or open about what's going on in my life. I can see how people might get confused or have the wrong impressions of what exactly it is that I'm going through. Sometimes I'll talk about things or think about things or have conversations about certain subjects and totally forget that the rest of the world hasn't been privy to any of it. Of course there are things that I don't want the whole world to be privy to, but that's not what I'm talking about here.

The other thing is that a lot of times I'll start blogging about something . . . not be able to complete it or explore the subject adequately . . . scrap it . . . then forget that I actually never published anything. I think it has a little therapeutic for me but, again, no one else really gains any insight. I also assume that a lot of people who read my blog also read Trixie's blog and gather info on what's going on with me through her.

These are just a few of the many things I've been thinking about lately and I'm not sure if I've really shared here or on Twitter or in emails or chat with people.

I still haven't come out to my parents and siblings. I've been thinking a lot about it lately with the recent death of my grandma. Trixie and I were in the Seattle area a few weeks ago visiting with an aunt, uncle, and cousins that were visiting for the week. None of them know yet that I am trans so it was a little strange sitting down and having dinner with them in DRAB and hoping there wouldn't be any slips in my mannerisms or Trixie wouldn't drop the wrong name or pronoun.

All in all it went well though I never really felt at ease during the whole visit. On the way back home I vowed to myself that that would be the last time I ever would put myself through something like that. I had already made an appointment with my therapist to work out a solid game plan for talking to my parents and coming out to my family. It's something that has really been weighing heavy on my mind lately. I feel a little relieved now that we have a good plan in place. It was also reassuring talking to someone who has helped people get through this sort of things countless times before.

We discussed timing a little bit and the advantages and disadvantages of being on HRT before talking to them. We were hoping that I would be on hormones and Trixie would have a bun in the oven when we had the whole conversation with my parents. Unfortunately the getting pregnant part has taken a lot more time and resources than we had originally planned on. So next month, baby on the way or not, I'll start on HRT. I'm going to put one last load of sperm into storage before hand. We're going to keep trying for the next few months and hope for the best. I know I can always back off the mones at some point if need be. At any rate I'll have a few months of being on hormones before talking to my parents about it which I think will help.

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Favorites

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Sat, 12 Jul 2008 20:45:00 +0000

Favorites

Sometimes I wish the photo shoots that we do just hinged on getting that one perfect shot . . . the money shot. Like they do in the advertising industry. With a very narrow focus and some sort of pre-concieved notion of what everyone is after. The model knows, the photographer knows, the hair and make-up people know, the wordrobe people know, even the guys that work the lights and fans and such are tuned into that one vision of the "perfect" picture.

Unfortunately for us we don't even have a staff to convey that sort of info to at this point. It's just me and Trix. Also, being in the adult industry and all, most of the time we are working for a progression of pictures. Starting with some sexy outfit and dwindling down to nothing or next to nothing with plenty of teasing along the way. Of course that leaves things a bit open as to *how* you get from point A to point B and the door to spontaneity is left wide open for the most part.

That being said I was really excited to see this photo in the mix from our latest shoot:

I'm so happy we got this shot, though neither Trixie or I set out to capture this one image. There are several other *really* nice pictures from this set and I'm sure different people would pick out different pictures as "the shot" from the set. To me though this is it and bound to be one of my favorite images of myself for years to come.

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Happy 4th of July

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Fri, 04 Jul 2008 01:18:00 +0000

Happy 4th of July

Here are a few pictures from my latest gallery:

Hope everyone here in the States has a very safe and relaxing weekend. Trixie and I will probably be laying low and watching some fireworks, though there is a chance we'll be dashing off to the fertility clinic in the next few days. We decided to give intrauterine insemination a go this month and Trixie is due to ovulate anytime now. Needless to say I may be moving my cam shows around at the last minute so be forewarned.

The pictures above btw are from the first set of me taken with our new camera. It's been a real joy to shoot with so far. The files are a lot larger and the over all quality is much better. We've had to make a few adjustments in how we actually take pictures and frame things. We've also just started to find the best setting for different situations. There have been a few minor frustrations while shooting but overall I'm pleased as punch with the how the end product is turning out.

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Mon, 23 Jun 2008 04:25:00 +0000

Cock Sock Fever

These are a few sample pics from the latest gallery I posted in my members area yesterday.

I also just posted the nine minute solo masturbation video in which I used the elastic straps on one of the socks to tie around my waist creating a nice little cock sock. I thought it was a pretty creative use for them ;-)

You'll notice from the pictures above that I have a little less hair in the pubic region. Actually I have no pubes at all, totally bald. I decided it was time for a little change and I think it does look a little nicer in pictures. A few members have requested the clean shaven look over the years so there ya have it. I hope your happy!!! Hehehehehe.

I'm pretty happy with the results from my last laser appointment. It's been a little over year of treatments now. I have one more scheduled appointment in July and that should basically wipe out whatever is left of my facial hair. I may have to go in for a touch up session later on. I may have a few white/blond hairs that might need to be taken out by electrolysis but I think those might end up being fine enough once I start on hormones that they probably won't be noticeable.

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Trixie and I are planning on going to Seattle Pride next weekend and are hoping to do a little meet and greet but haven't nailed anything down yet. I know it's short notice but if anyone is interested be sure to let me know.

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I Tried . . .

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Sat, 14 Jun 2008 16:32:00 +0000

I Tried . . .

I really did. But new content for this week's update just wasn't happening. I'm going to do an extra juicy double update next week to make up for it which I'll try to post as soon as possible.

It's not like I don't have any cute outfits waiting to shoot in or any good ideas for shoots. It's just with trying to get pregnant and having company here and trying to keep up with cam shows has thrown a bit of a wrench into the system. I also just had my laser done on Tuesday and have two dark stripes running down my chin from areas that didn't get hit last time. The follicles are still working there way out and should be cleared up in a few days. I was all set to shoot yesterday and was hoping it would be cleared up or at least not that noticeable but they're still pretty bad. I know if I wait a few days it will look much better and I won't have to worry about going through and trying to touch up every single picture with my face in it.

Anywhoooo . . . I'll still be doing my live cam shows on Sunday from 3-4 pm and Monday 7-8 pm Pacific time. We'll probably shoot on Tuesday or Wednesday and I'll try to have a phat (yes that IS fat with a ph) update posted by the end of the week.

Mulling Over

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Sun, 25 May 2008 03:09:00 +0000

Mulling Over
I haven't seemed to be able to get my blogging groove on lately. Not that I really ever had any sort of groove. I do have a few things I want to write about though but just never seem to be able to get started on them. So instead of writing a quick little entry like this I end up sitting and mulling things over, trying to write a bit, getting frustrated, then scrapping the whole idea before going on to work on something more productive. Anyway, I thought I'd just keep things simple and share a few pics from my latest update while I continue to mull things over.

These are a few of the PG rated gems from the gallery I posted today. Kind of funky, no? I actually ended up cumming all over one of those boots while we were shooting the video. We were getting some really nice light that day and it was catching the highlights in my hair just right. Needless to say I was pleased with both the pictures and the video. I'll be posting the video next week.

Just a quick reminder for members that I bumped my cam show back an hour tomorrow/Sunday to 3-4 pm Pacific time to give me a bit more prep time. Mondays is still 7-8 pm Pacific time. Okay, I know that was a quick and rather lame blog post but it's back to the mulling for me.

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Cam Shows

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Sat, 03 May 2008 17:37:00 +0000

Cam Shows

It's funny to me how I sometimes will get people coming into my chatroom during my group cam shows who obviously come in just to be disruptive. They usually say something rude or demeaning right away and quickly leave or I boot them out. I think other people come in with the intention of being assholes and actually end up enjoying part of the show. At some point they must get a little freaked out and are confused or feel guilty then they feel the need to lash out. I suspect many of them lurk around afterwards watching but not coming into the chatroom.

I usually get the standard attempts at insults like you're fucking sick or EWWWWWW!!! or WTF are you a DUDE? Occasionally people are hostile to everyone enjoying the show saying things like you're all a bunch of FAGS!! Even though I know there are females that equally enjoy my shows. Lately I've been getting a few interesting attempts that I've found particularly amusing.

A few weeks ago someone wanted me to show them my tits. Sometimes I'll just pull the breast forms out of my bra and flop them around in front of the camera just for a laugh. But most of the time I show my tiny titties off a bit and give a close up of my pierced nipples, which I did this time. The person obviously knew I didn't have "boobs" and wanted to say something demeaning about my flat chest. So they blurted out "Those aren't real!". I got a real kick out of that one. Yeah, these are implants. I was a little short on dough so I had to go with the micro boobies!

Then there was this guy last week who sat through the whole show and wanted everyone to know what a big manly man he was with a big cock built to satisfy. I usually wait to cum towards the end of the show (a little hint there for anyone who just wants to see the pop shot). So I got near the end and did a close up cum shot with my normal two or three spurts. And this guy's comment was "You call that a load?". Now, sometimes I do pvts before my group shows or may even have had sex earlier so I don't always shoot gallons of cum. But I hadn't done either before the show last week and it really was a pretty big load. I've actually become a pretty good judge of what a good load is from having my semen stored and analyzed at the sperm bank. The total volume for a healthy male is at least 2 ml. I've been averaging 4 to 6 ml per trip. Knowing what 6 ml of cum looks like, I would say that load was in the 6 to 8 ml range. Apparently it wasn't the flood of spooge this guy produces with his super soaker schlong though. It's the first time in my four years of doing cam shows that someone has criticized the volume of cum I produce. I guess he gets points for originality.

Speaking of cam shows . . . I changed the time of my camshow on Sunday to 2:00-3:00 pm Pacific time. Hopefully the new time slot will fit into members schedules better. I kept the Monday show at 7:00-8:00 pm but will be doing pvt shows before hand so members can see me earlier on our voyeur cams and I will bein our members only chat room.

I also sent out my bi monthly newsletter this week with the usual link to some freebies. I've gotton some good feedback from it. Hmmmm . . . maybe we should be doing some more strapon sex videos? I also tend to get a lot of email everytime I send out a newletter. So if you've written recently it may take me awhile to get back to you.

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Personality

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Mon, 21 Apr 2008 05:19:00 +0000

Personality

Some times I really do wish we had the time and money to put together really high quality professional looking porn. By that I mean having a swanky set with really good lighting, a sound guy, maybe a camera man or two with high quality equipment that could capture things at different angles. Other times I just really enjoy putting together our little amateur productions for our members with their little quirks and foibles. There's a certain charm to our content and even a distinctive style that has sort of developed over the years as a result of working in our own little self contained unit. Something really personal, sexy and at times even humorous. When I was editing the half hour or so of footage for last weeks strapon video that Trixie and I shot there were things that thought were definitely hot like this:

Then there were things that just cracked me up like seeing Trixie's head pop up from behind me while she's working the zoom via remote control.

Porn with personality . . . you gotta love it!!!

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Promoting: Others and Self

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Sun, 13 Apr 2008 02:03:00 +0000

Promoting: Others and Self

I love the amount of cross promotion that goes on in the world of internet porn. There are various methods like trading links or swapping content. Occasionally girls will get together and do shoots that each can use on their own site while also sending traffic to their friend's. Of course some people just like the content on a particular site and think fans of their site might enjoy it too. So they may promote it and make a little money from their affiliate program.

When I got a free promotional tank top from Shemale Yum (thanks Seanchai)I decided I would do a little shoot in it. Partly because it was cute and would be good content for my site and partly to promote their site. They are actually one of the first shemale sites that I ever joined years ago. They have been on the net for over ten years now and continue to feature a wide variety of t-girls from all over world. Not only that but the people who run it are good people, at least the ones that I've been in contact with. Here's a little sample from the set:

Some people even offer to make special fan signs like this one from Jamie Cox:

Awww . . . thank you Jamie!!! She really is a cutie and from what I've seen she has some great content. She also has a super nice webmaster who has helped promote my site in the past (thanks Vince).

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Okay, enough about these other sites here's a little exciting news about my site. Thanks largely to Trixie's efforts my member's area has an awesome new make over. It's much more sleek and shiny and easier to navigate with a few new added features and information. Also it is set up similar to Trixie's site. And since a membership to one of our sites gives you access to all of our sites it will make it easier to navigate for people moving from one site to the next. It makes me feel really proud every time I look at it. Here's a little peek:

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But wait there's more!!! Trixie and I shot some really hot strap on sex video last week. It starts out POV with me giving her strap on a good tongue bath, then she bends me over the arm of the couch and fucks my ass for awhile. The grand finale features me riding her reverse cowgirl with a sweet pop shot! I'll try to post a few screen caps from it in the next week or so.

I'll be doing a softcore cam show tomorrow since Trixie will be ovulating soon. Probably a lot of dressing and stripping with a lot of teasing. We will be having sex in the morning so members can catch us on our voyeur cams.

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Passable?

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Sat, 05 Apr 2008 23:06:00 +0000

Passable?

It seems like recently I've been having a harder time "passing", though not in the way you might think. There are certain things that I still do in "boy mode" more or less out of necessity or convenience. Things like going to the gym which presents a bit of problem when it comes to showers, sauna, steam room, and bathroom facilities which are located in the locker rooms. I'll probably drop my membership after I start on hormones and look for other exercise options. But for now I've just been going in my "boy mode". This is usually consists of a pair of pants, a T-shirt, a baggy pull over fleece top, a puffy vest, and a ball cap with my hair pulled back in a pony tail. No one there has ever said anything about my vanishing facial hair, my smoothly shaven legs or my workout habits which consists of cardio and lower body training.

So lately my look has been kind of a boyish/androgynous one when I'm not intentionally trying to present as a female (i.e. with make up, hair styled, wearing a dress, skirt, bra and breast forms, etc.). I don't know why, but it was surprising to me when I started getting ma'amed and missed and referred to with feminine pronouns much more often in this boy/andro mode. A while back when I was shopping with Trixie the sales person asked how us ladies were doing. More recently a waitress asked, "What can I get for you ladies today?" while I was having lunch with Trixie's mom and sister. A sales person at the local hardware store asked me "Are you finding everything okay, ma'am?" just the other day. The ultimate compliment however, happened at the grocery when I totally got cruised by a butch dyke in the meat and seafood isle. That one had me grinning for the rest of the day.

This all has me thinking more about passing/blending and the amount of effort it really takes to be sucessful. When I am dressed in obviously feminine attire I don't seem to worry as much about some things like which restroom I should use. And when I'm in a more androgynous look I don't seem to be as conscious about how other people are perceiving me. I think once I start on hormones my somewhat exaggerated feminine look will start to merge with my andro/boyish look and I'll end up right about where I want to be. I guess that's already starting to happen. I'm just looking forward to the day when insides finally match up with my outsides.

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Spring Cleaning

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Sun, 30 Mar 2008 04:34:00 +0000

Spring Cleaning

I've been going through a little cleaning and sorting binge lately. I'm not sure if it's a spring cleaning thing or a nesting instinct kicking in or just a way for me to take my mind off things and still feel like I'm actually accomplishing something. Today I think I'll spend some time cleaning up my office space and sorting through some of the piles of paper that seem to be stacking up. There are a lot of other things that I could/should be doing but just can't seem to focus on. I feel like I've been really scatter brained lately jumping from one thing to the next without really completing anything. I think just having my work space cleaned up will make me feel more productive.

Tomorrow we're planning to do another outside shoot if the weather cooperates. Hopefully we won't have the same problem that we had last time. On Friday we're going to try to shoot some hardcore, possibly strap-on play.

For those of you that are wondering how the baby plans are coming along, we are still trying. Trixie has been writing more about it on her Fertility Blog. It's been a pretty frustrating process. With each passing month we seem to be getting that much closer though sometimes it feels like the total opposite. Add to it the fact that I'm waiting to start HRT until we conceive and it makes it almost torturous at times. Never the less we are pressing forward and keep hoping for the best.

Very Green and Kinda Blue

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Sat, 15 Mar 2008 23:49:00 +0000

Very Green and Kinda Blue
I just finished posting my member's only update for the week. As you can see there was a bit of a St Paddy's Day theme involved.

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I was actually pleasantly surprised at how well this set turned out considering how terrible I was feeling earlier that day. I'm not sure what was going on with me but I was feeling seriously depressed that morning. Obviously I have a lot going on in my life right now which adds a bit more stress and anxiety than usual. Plus when I quit drinking one of my coping mechanisms was taken away and I'm still adjusting and seeking other methods to cope. I also haven't been getting enough sleep lately so that hasn't been helping.

One of the things that has been helping a bit is playing music. I forgot how therapeutic sitting down and just noodling around on my bass could be. I need to get a little practice amp for it so I can move around the house more easily and not bother Trixie as much. I hope to be able to get out in the yard a bit more this spring and do a little gardening. That seems to be another good form of therapy for me.

One thing I have been doing is exercising a lot more. That coupled with the not drinking thing means I've been losing some weight which is a good thing. Most males will end up gaining 10-12 lbs after starting on female hormones and t blockers. My goal is to lose as much as I can while still being healthy beforehand. This way once I start on the mones I'll be putting back on the weight but hopefully it will be in all the right places.

Anyway, I've been feeling much better these past few days. I think it was just a bit of a funk. I'll be doing my group cam shows tomorrow and Monday at 7:00 pm Pacific time. And baby making activities have been in high gear the past few days so keep those fingers crossed!!!

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My Busy Friday

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Sun, 24 Feb 2008 17:32:00 +0000

My Busy Friday

My busy Friday started out with posting a new set of pictures in my members area. They are from our trip down to Portland. There are some really sexy leg and ass shots in this set. Here's a little sample:

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Friday was also photo shoot day, which started with an outside shoot of me in my black trench coat, boots, and bra and pantie set.

It ended up being rather windy out so my hair was blowing around like crazy most of the time we were shooting. It resulted in some of the pictures looking pretty cool and others not so much. Who needs a wind machine on set when you have the real deal. Unfortunately it was not a steady breeze and was swirling around quite a bit so you never knew when or where it would be coming from.

The other unfortunate part of shooting on a nice Friday afternoon in the park is that there were quite a few people out and about. We ended up getting interrupted twice and had to bag the video. Trixie was doing her best to deter people from poking their heads into our secluded little spot cutting them off and telling them we were taking pictures in there. It didn't seem discourage these curious folks from checking it out though. It wouldn't have been so bad if it were just adults, but there were some kids running around too. Fortunately we could hear people coming so I was able to cover up with my trench coat before anyone caught an eyeful.

Since we weren't able to get a good video out of that shoot we decided to do another shoot when we got home. It was pretty casual, just me in on the chair in the living room with my new Mountain Hardware skirt a hoody and some socks. At least we could control the elements and didn't have to worry about being interrupted. It ended up being a really cute set with lots of upskirt shots with and without panties.

All in all it was a pretty fun and productive day. Today I have my camshow at 7:00 pm Pacific Time. Trixie's period just started so I may end up taking pictures for her red site later on. I'll probably be on IFriends later on too for private shows.

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Being Sober

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Tue, 19 Feb 2008 01:13:00 +0000

Being Sober

A few months ago I decided it was time for me to quit drinking and dry out for a bit. I had gotten into the habit of drinking on a daily basis and was having a hard time breaking that habit. When I say drinking on a daily basis I'm not talking falling down passed out in a pool of puke and urine drunk every night. I was however consuming anywhere from 2-4 drinks nearly every day and drinking in excess of that a few nights a week.

I'd been seeing the tell tale signs that things were getting out of control for quite awhile before I actually quit. Obviously there was some denial going on. Since Trixie doesn't drink and I am pretty asocial most of my drinking was done alone. I would often tell myself I was just going to have a glass of wine then end up polishing off the bottle. I was hiding how much I was drinking from Trixie. I was feeling burned out and drinking was becoming less enjoyable and more part of the routine.

I tried cutting back on my drinking a few times which worked for maybe a week or two. Eventually,though I found myself falling back into the same old routine. So, after having a drunken blowout argument with Trixie, I decided to go cold turkey, something I knew I had to do but kept putting off.

I've been sober now for 3 months. It's the longest stretch that I've gone without a drink since I was probably 14 or 15 years old. I'm just now starting to really feel some of the benefits of sobriety. My body feels much better, healthier and cleaner. I feel more mentally alert and present. My thoughts are clearer and my dreams more vivid. My relationship with Trixie has improved.

I still do have urges to drink from time to time. Mostly in social situations or when I'm doing cam shows. The times where I might feel a little awkward and want lose my inhibitions a bit or simply get my groove on. I'm working through it though.

I hope that someday I'll be able go back to the casual drinking habits I enjoyed for at least part of my adult life. Because I do enjoy having a glass of wine with a nice meal or a cold beer after doing some yard work or a little champagne to celebrate a special event. For now though, like Rachel Kramer Bussel wrote at the beginning of the year, I'm taking it one day at a time.

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Happy Valentine's!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Thu, 14 Feb 2008 17:43:00 +0000

Happy Valentine's!!!

I couldn't help posting this little clip of my friends the sea otters today. The last time I was out on the San Juan Islands I spent hours and hours watching them frolic and play in the kelp beds. They are just so cute and loving in that anthropomorphic kind of way.

Awwww . . . now don't you just feel all warm and fuzzy after watching it ;-)

Trixie and I aren't planning much for today. We already had our little celebration on Tuesday. We are planning on be in our members chat room at some point this afternoon/evening and possibly doing some pvt cam shows. Right now I need to work on my video update for this week which I will be posting later today.

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John He Is

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Mon, 11 Feb 2008 19:37:00 +0000

John He Is

I ran across this parody of Obama's "Yes We Can" video and it gave me a nice little morning giggle.

We had a jolly good time at our precinct caucus on Saturday. You can read Trixie's account of our day if you are interested. It sounds like the republicans here in Washington are having a bit of a tough time with their tally. Poor Mike Huckabee. The guy just get's no repect.

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Sleep Laughing

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Fri, 08 Feb 2008 19:56:00 +0000

Sleep Laughing

A few more pics from my latest update. A little upskirt action:

And a little bulging white cotton panties action:

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A couple of nights ago I woke up at about 5 in the morning from a deep sleep. I had been dreaming. About what? I have no clue. What I do know is that by the end of the dream I was laughing hysterically. Laughing like I haven't laughed in a long time. It was a doubled over side splitting laughter. The hold me down and tickle me until I wet my panties kind of laughter. The kind of laughter that leaves you gasping for air. Which is probably what caused me to awaken.

Like I said I have no idea what the hell the dream was about or what it was in the dream that was sooooo hilarious. Maybe it was nothing at all. Maybe it was just my brain trying to give itself that crazy laughter fix it was jonesing for. All I know is that when I did wake up I felt incredible. Better than waking up from a cool flying dream or a good sex dream.

The other thing that I'm a little puzzled over is whether I was laughing out loud or just on the inside? I would imagine that I would have woken Trixie up if I was laughing out loud and yet she was sound asleep. However she does sleep with ear plugs in so it is conceivable that she didn't hear anything. I have heard her giggling in her sleep before, but never full blown laughter. I have a feeling mine was totally internal. I don't know, but it was pretty cool. I wish I could wake up every morning feeling that good inside.

Super Sunday

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Mon, 04 Feb 2008 04:20:00 +0000

Super Sunday

It's a bird . . . it's a plane . . . it's Sooooooper Tranny!!!!

Yeah, I fucking rock!!!! I just crack up every time I look at this picture. It looks like I'm about to hit my head on the ceiling or something. We took this set the other night. As you can see it was Guitar Hero inspired shoot. I think my inner rock goddess really came out!!! There are some really cute pics in the set especially if you like bulging white cotton panties. I'll post a few more samples soon. I just started going through and editing them.

Trixie and I had a pretty fun day. I cancelled my cam show and we did a members chat from bed while we watched the Super Bowl and eat a variety of snacks including fishsticks and lemon juice, veggies and dilly dip, Fritos and bean dip, and diet Vernor's. I didn't really know much about either of the teams other than New England was undefeated and NY was the under dog. I was pulling for the Giants but really just hoping it would be a decent game and not a trouncing. So I was happy with the outcome on both counts.

I'll be doing cam shows tomorrow (Monday, 7-8 pm Pacific time) and Wednesday 6-7 pm to make up for missing today.

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Super Tuesday and Beyond

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Sun, 03 Feb 2008 18:59:00 +0000

Super Tuesday and Beyond

Just a little reminder to those of you in states holding primaries/caucuses this Tuesday and beyond get out and vote. Though I am generally skeptical of any politician's claim to change anything, I do like Obama's message. For me he has the most promise out of any of the canidates Dem or Rep to actually begin to reverse some of the polarization that has taken place throughout this country. And geez his supporters can even boil it down to a music video ;-)

Regardless of who you support please get out and participate.

This, that, the other

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Mon, 28 Jan 2008 20:41:00 +0000

This, that, the other

I'm a little ahead of the game on posting a Valentine's shoot this year. I posted a set of pictures last week and will be doing a video this week. We took them while we were in Portland a few weeks ago.

The main reason we were down in Portland was to meet with my doctor and make sure that everything was okay with me before starting on hormone replacement therapy. Everything went pretty well, though my liver function was a little off. They just want to keep an eye on it so I'll have to do another blood test in a month or so.

I'll be starting out with a fairly low dosage of estrogen (estradiol) and a testostorone "blocker" spironolactone. I've been taking regular aspirin to reduce the chance of any blood clotting but the Dr said I could just use the childrens chewable which is nice to know. So I have the prescriptions in hand now it's just a matter of getting pregnant. There is more on that subject here.

I had cancel my cam shows this week for baby making activities so I'll be doing a members only chat tonight at 7:00 pm Pacific time as a bit of a make up. We're also hoping to do a few shoots this evening.

Random Album/CD

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Thu, 10 Jan 2008 03:38:00 +0000

Random Album/CD

A fun little idea taken from Trixie's Blog

Instructions:

1. The first article title on the Wikipedia Random Articles page is the name of your band.

2. The last four words of the very last quotation on the Random Quotations page is the title of your album.

3. The third picture in Flickr's Interesting Photos From The Last 7 Days will be your album cover.

4. Use your graphics programme of choice to throw them together, and post the result.

Here's mine:

Take your favorite love songs from the eighties and combine them with the mellow sounds of today's smooth jazz and you get one Grand Match. These great hits are bound to keep you and your special friend busy for . . . more than one night.

Band Name | Album Title | Cover Art

Happy 2008!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Delia) — Wed, 02 Jan 2008 05:29:00 +0000

Happy 2008!!!

Hope everyone made it home safe and sound after ringing in '08. I also hope you weren't too hung over today. We stayed in last night and had a pretty quite and sober evening. We are both recovering from colds and don't usually do much on New Year's Eve anyway.

I thought I'd share a few lines from some of the last emails I received in 2007. One email from someone who has been a member to my site in the past:

Not sure why but I keep trying other sites and I am ALWAYS disappointed. Your personal efforts and extra touches make your site worth every penny.

And one from a new member who just joined:

Just want to say I love your website. I have been coming across a few of your pictures and was tempted to join your site for the last year or so. But tonight I just had to join. And I am not regretting it. Fucking awesome.

It's so nice to get those little pats on the back every now and then. Especially this time of the year when people naturally tend to mull over the past year and look at the ups and downs. Sometimes when you're at it week in and week out, doing cam shows, planning photo shoots, editing pictures and video, updating, promoting, networking, blogging it's easy to start wondering if it's all worth it. Then you get an email like one of those above and it's like . . . yeah, people really do appreciate it all.

It's exciting to me to be able to look back and see the growth both in terms of the content we have created and our membership base. I mean it hasn't been huge and it has been a bit erratic at times on a smaller scale but overall we've seen pretty steady growth. It's also exciting to look ahead to 2008 and all the plans and changes that are just on the horizon. It should make for an interesting year.

Tomorrow I go in for my 7th laser treatment. My facial hair really thinned out after the last treatment. I'm hoping these next few sessions will leave me smoother than a baby's tushy. I can't wait to be done with it.

In a few weeks I'll be going to my first doctors appointment to get the ball rolling on HRT. I'm pretty excited about that. I have to call tomorrow and see if they recommend freezing anymore semen before starting on the mones.

I changed my cam show days around this week. They will be on Sunday and Monday now both from 7-8 pm Pacific Time. Hope to see you there ;-)

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