Here's a few pics from this weeks update taken during our trip out to the Washington coast earlier this week:
I'll be posting the full set on Sunday so technically I guess that makes it next weeks update.
We had a great time while we were there. The weather was mostly overcast and foggy, but we did get a few sun breaks. And it was warm enough that we were able to get out and frolic in the water for awhile. Not that we wouldn't have otherwise . . . it just made it a bit nicer.
We took lots of long walks, took some nudey pictures and ate lots junk food(mmmmmmm . . . spicey pickled sausage and Zotz!). The last night we stayed at a campground roasted hot dogs and marshmallows over an open fire. I also had a chance to test out my new camp stove which worked great for hot drinks.
I noticed a little more color in my face when we got home. I think it looks great but, unfortunately I have a laser hair removal appointment next week. So it's not so great for that. I even wore sunblock most of the time. I think it must have washed out in the water though. Oh well, it should fade out some by next week.
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Sometimes I wish the photo shoots that we do just hinged on getting that one perfect shot . . . the money shot. Like they do in the advertising industry. With a very narrow focus and some sort of pre-concieved notion of what everyone is after. The model knows, the photographer knows, the hair and make-up people know, the wordrobe people know, even the guys that work the lights and fans and such are tuned into that one vision of the "perfect" picture.
Unfortunately for us we don't even have a staff to convey that sort of info to at this point. It's just me and Trix. Also, being in the adult industry and all, most of the time we are working for a progression of pictures. Starting with some sexy outfit and dwindling down to nothing or next to nothing with plenty of teasing along the way. Of course that leaves things a bit open as to *how* you get from point A to point B and the door to spontaneity is left wide open for the most part.
That being said I was really excited to see this photo in the mix from our latest shoot:
I'm so happy we got this shot, though neither Trixie or I set out to capture this one image. There are several other *really* nice pictures from this set and I'm sure different people would pick out different pictures as "the shot" from the set. To me though this is it and bound to be one of my favorite images of myself for years to come.
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These are a few sample pics from the latest gallery I posted in my members area yesterday.
I also just posted the nine minute solo masturbation video in which I used the elastic straps on one of the socks to tie around my waist creating a nice little cock sock. I thought it was a pretty creative use for them ;-)
You'll notice from the pictures above that I have a little less hair in the pubic region. Actually I have no pubes at all, totally bald. I decided it was time for a little change and I think it does look a little nicer in pictures. A few members have requested the clean shaven look over the years so there ya have it. I hope your happy!!! Hehehehehe.
I'm pretty happy with the results from my last laser appointment. It's been a little over year of treatments now. I have one more scheduled appointment in July and that should basically wipe out whatever is left of my facial hair. I may have to go in for a touch up session later on. I may have a few white/blond hairs that might need to be taken out by electrolysis but I think those might end up being fine enough once I start on hormones that they probably won't be noticeable.
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Trixie and I are planning on going to Seattle Pride next weekend and are hoping to do a little meet and greet but haven't nailed anything down yet. I know it's short notice but if anyone is interested be sure to let me know.
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Mulling Over I haven't seemed to be able to get my blogging groove on lately. Not that I really ever had any sort of groove. I do have a few things I want to write about though but just never seem to be able to get started on them. So instead of writing a quick little entry like this I end up sitting and mulling things over, trying to write a bit, getting frustrated, then scrapping the whole idea before going on to work on something more productive. Anyway, I thought I'd just keep things simple and share a few pics from my latest update while I continue to mull things over.
These are a few of the PG rated gems from the gallery I posted today. Kind of funky, no? I actually ended up cumming all over one of those boots while we were shooting the video. We were getting some really nice light that day and it was catching the highlights in my hair just right. Needless to say I was pleased with both the pictures and the video. I'll be posting the video next week.
Just a quick reminder for members that I bumped my cam show back an hour tomorrow/Sunday to 3-4 pm Pacific time to give me a bit more prep time. Mondays is still 7-8 pm Pacific time. Okay, I know that was a quick and rather lame blog post but it's back to the mulling for me.
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My busy Friday started out with posting a new set of pictures in my members area. They are from our trip down to Portland. There are some really sexy leg and ass shots in this set. Here's a little sample:
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Friday was also photo shoot day, which started with an outside shoot of me in my black trench coat, boots, and bra and pantie set.
It ended up being rather windy out so my hair was blowing around like crazy most of the time we were shooting. It resulted in some of the pictures looking pretty cool and others not so much. Who needs a wind machine on set when you have the real deal. Unfortunately it was not a steady breeze and was swirling around quite a bit so you never knew when or where it would be coming from.
The other unfortunate part of shooting on a nice Friday afternoon in the park is that there were quite a few people out and about. We ended up getting interrupted twice and had to bag the video. Trixie was doing her best to deter people from poking their heads into our secluded little spot cutting them off and telling them we were taking pictures in there. It didn't seem discourage these curious folks from checking it out though. It wouldn't have been so bad if it were just adults, but there were some kids running around too. Fortunately we could hear people coming so I was able to cover up with my trench coat before anyone caught an eyeful.
Since we weren't able to get a good video out of that shoot we decided to do another shoot when we got home. It was pretty casual, just me in on the chair in the living room with my new Mountain Hardware skirt a hoody and some socks. At least we could control the elements and didn't have to worry about being interrupted. It ended up being a really cute set with lots of upskirt shots with and without panties.
All in all it was a pretty fun and productive day. Today I have my camshow at 7:00 pm Pacific Time. Trixie's period just started so I may end up taking pictures for her red site later on. I'll probably be on IFriends later on too for private shows.
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A few more pics from my latest update. A little upskirt action:
And a little bulging white cotton panties action:
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A couple of nights ago I woke up at about 5 in the morning from a deep sleep. I had been dreaming. About what? I have no clue. What I do know is that by the end of the dream I was laughing hysterically. Laughing like I haven't laughed in a long time. It was a doubled over side splitting laughter. The hold me down and tickle me until I wet my panties kind of laughter. The kind of laughter that leaves you gasping for air. Which is probably what caused me to awaken.
Like I said I have no idea what the hell the dream was about or what it was in the dream that was sooooo hilarious. Maybe it was nothing at all. Maybe it was just my brain trying to give itself that crazy laughter fix it was jonesing for. All I know is that when I did wake up I felt incredible. Better than waking up from a cool flying dream or a good sex dream.
The other thing that I'm a little puzzled over is whether I was laughing out loud or just on the inside? I would imagine that I would have woken Trixie up if I was laughing out loud and yet she was sound asleep. However she does sleep with ear plugs in so it is conceivable that she didn't hear anything. I have heard her giggling in her sleep before, but never full blown laughter. I have a feeling mine was totally internal. I don't know, but it was pretty cool. I wish I could wake up every morning feeling that good inside.
It's a bird . . . it's a plane . . . it's Sooooooper Tranny!!!!
Yeah, I fucking rock!!!! I just crack up every time I look at this picture. It looks like I'm about to hit my head on the ceiling or something. We took this set the other night. As you can see it was Guitar Hero inspired shoot. I think my inner rock goddess really came out!!! There are some really cute pics in the set especially if you like bulging white cotton panties. I'll post a few more samples soon. I just started going through and editing them.
Trixie and I had a pretty fun day. I cancelled my cam show and we did a members chat from bed while we watched the Super Bowl and eat a variety of snacks including fishsticks and lemon juice, veggies and dilly dip, Fritos and bean dip, and diet Vernor's. I didn't really know much about either of the teams other than New England was undefeated and NY was the under dog. I was pulling for the Giants but really just hoping it would be a decent game and not a trouncing. So I was happy with the outcome on both counts.
I'll be doing cam shows tomorrow (Monday, 7-8 pm Pacific time) and Wednesday 6-7 pm to make up for missing today.
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I'm a little ahead of the game on posting a Valentine's shoot this year. I posted a set of pictures last week and will be doing a video this week. We took them while we were in Portland a few weeks ago.
The main reason we were down in Portland was to meet with my doctor and make sure that everything was okay with me before starting on hormone replacement therapy. Everything went pretty well, though my liver function was a little off. They just want to keep an eye on it so I'll have to do another blood test in a month or so.
I'll be starting out with a fairly low dosage of estrogen (estradiol) and a testostorone "blocker" spironolactone. I've been taking regular aspirin to reduce the chance of any blood clotting but the Dr said I could just use the childrens chewable which is nice to know. So I have the prescriptions in hand now it's just a matter of getting pregnant. There is more on that subject here.
I had cancel my cam shows this week for baby making activities so I'll be doing a members only chat tonight at 7:00 pm Pacific time as a bit of a make up. We're also hoping to do a few shoots this evening.
I just wanted to wish everyone a very happy and safe holiday season before it slips by me once again this year. We've had our little pink tree up for a few weeks now and I strung up some lights outside. Not a huge display, but just enough to put a festive glow on the house. It's getting dark just after 4:00 pm here so it's nice to have some cheery lights on when it's cold and dark and wet outside.
We'll be spending Christmas with Trixie's family this year which is nice since they all know I'm transitioning and are cool with it. I have yet to come out to anyone on my side of the family. I'm hoping to time that with Trixie being pregnant, which is something I know they will be happy about. Then I'll just sort of slip in the whole trans thing . . . "oh and by the way I'm a transsexual." Not only do they get the great news that they're getting a new grandchild but also that the son they always thought they had is actually the daughter that they always wanted. What a joyous day that will be ;-) In the meantime I'll continue to play the role of son just as I always have.
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This weeks update is all about the panties . . . gold shiny satin panties that is ;-)
Of course there are also some lovely shots of my nylon stocking clad legs thrown in too.
I think Trixie was so enamored with these panties shimmering in the light that she had a hard time putting down the camera. It ended up being a rather large set. After getting rid of all the blurry, doubles, and otherwise undesirable pictures there ended up being just over 200 in the gallery. Most of my galleries are in the 120-160 range. It's nice to have a big fat juicy gallery to put up every so often though, especially during this joyous holiday season!!!
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I do have a few things that I want to blog about but don't really have the time to do them justice right now. So I'm hoping that a few pictures from latest update will keep you entertained while I'm formulating some thoughts.
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After seeing Trixie blog entry from Thursday I realized I haven't really been posting that many pictures recently. So here a a few from more recent photo sets: ***** And most recently:
I'll be doing cam shows this afternoon and evening. I'm going to be changing my camming days to Saturday and Monday starting next week. So just a little heads up for members.
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Here are a few sample pictures from the gallery I added on Sunday:
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I don't usually do a lot of topless pictures in my picture sets and videos. I think part of it is that I don't really have "boobs" (yet) but I do wear bras and falsies to create the illusion of boobs. So it seems kind of counter intuitive to take them off during a set and shatter that illusion. I know that's a little silly since every one joining my site knows that I'm a cross dresser and that I don't have boobs (yet) and I do get requests for more skin quite often.
The other obvious reason is the flat chest does make me look boyish, then again so do my rather broad shoulders, but not much I can do about that. I think with the right pose and camera angle though that it can come off more soft and feminine. I actually like my tiny titties and playing with piercings quit a bit, so it does make sense that other people want to enjoy them too.
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I was up pretty late last night putting the finishing touches on this week's update.
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Trixie and I had a little meeting last week about what our personal changes are going to mean for our sites. We set up a rough outline of the changes that needed to be made and how we're going to adapt a new set of circumstances. I think we have a pretty good idea of where we are heading with our sites and are starting to come together with a common vision.
Last week I also sent out my monthly newsletter with my May Updates preview. I basically let everyone know that I was transitioning and that there would be a few changes coming soon. For one thing I'll be adding *another* one hour cam show by the end of the month. I'll also be adding a few hours of video chat during the week. So there will be even more personal interaction.
It's always a little exciting to me to know that my newsletter is sent out in bulk to thousands of people. I like imagining just how many people will actually be inticed into buying a membership. Usually the percentage is actually pretty low. I think most people just are happy to get a little free porn, nothing wrong with that. But I do usually see a little jump in sales after sending it out which makes it worth the hassle of putting it all together each month.
I usually keep the message simple and let the content speak for itself. This month I did add the fact that the I am transitioning and it does add some financial burden. I also added that if you are thinking about joining or have been a member in the past and enjoyed my site, than now would be a great time to sign up for a membership as a show of support. Personally I hate being solicited for money, even if it is for a cause I totally agree with. So I hope it wasn't a turn off for people or end up coming across in the wrong way. I'm actually pretty lucky to do what I do for a living and always thankful to those that have helped me out in one way or another along the way. Just getting some of the email and feedback from people has been really encouraging. It's gonna be a long and challenging journey and I'm glad I've got some good people out there looking out for me.
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"So, first of all, let me assert my firm belief that the only thing we have to fear is fear itself nameless, unreasoning, unjustified terror which paralyzes needed efforts to convert retreat into advance." FDR’s First Inaugural Address
Today we are going over to visit Trixie's sister, brother in law and nephew (hehehe . . . kinda sounds like Twisted Sister. Dee Schnieder will not be there). They are going to be the first people I tell that I'm transitioning. I don't think it's going to be that big of a deal to them. They know I dress and they know about the websites and everything and they are cool with it. They have never actually seen me as Delia though. So I'm not sure what their reaction will be when we tell them that their son is going to have two aunties. I'm not sure how they'll react to seeing me in person for the first time either.
It's exactly this sort of fear of the unknown that has kept me in the closet for so long. Fear of rejection, of not being accepted for who I am by people that I love, admire, and care about. What makes it a bit harder for me is that I am also a fairly "sensitive" person. I've learned to put on a good facade over the years and I think living with Trixie has helped thicken my skin a bit ;-)~~ I think having some of the life experience that I have is going to make things a bit easier too.
And the beat goes on. These are a few sample pics from this weeks gallery. The pink apron was just too fucking adorable!!! You'll never guess where those pink latex covered fingers ended up either . . . well, some of you might ;-)
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Black and White Sometimes when I do this too much . . .
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I have to do this . . .
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I am often times amazed just how hard modeling can be at times: arching your back, pushing out your booty, sucking in that tummy, and hold it for just a few more shots and, oh yes, smile. It's even tougher when you are trying to pose as sexy and feminine as possible and are limited to the physical resources of a male body. Of course this is only amatuer photography and modeling for a porn site. I actually have a greater appreciation of what "real" models have to go through.
Speaking of models and porn . . . if you are a Wendy Williams fan or admirer you should check out her new video blog. Some nice behind the scenes type of insight as only Wendy can deliver ;-) Of course with that . . . ummmmm sexy Southern twang ;-)
Soooo . . . I will be out of town this Sunday and and have bumped my show up to Friday. Hope you can join me ;-)
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I just love starting out a blog entry with a witty title. Ohhhh boy . . . I sure know how to amuse myself!!! I'm such a dork. For those of you who don't get the reference.
We found a great place to shoot content last week, and shoot we did. We probably could have shot there for a week and still not used all the potential locations. We did have fun shooting what we did though, including the pictures above of me in on the staircase.
I usually have a hard time posing in tight quarters because I have such a large frame, but I was really happy with the way this set turned out. I've also been waiting a long time to do a shoot in these boots that a member sent to me over a year ago. I'll probably post the full set next week.
Trixie also posted a few pictures on her blog that we took the previous week and will be included in future updates. You can see them here.
I'll be doing my one hour group cam show tomorrow from 4-5 Pacific Time and will be doing pvt shows afterwards on Ifriends.
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Wish List I need to get my shit together and put up a wish list. I've had a few people ask about certain outfits or specific clothing requests. I also seem to have rather expensive taste in lingerie, shoes, stockings and undergarments. I love corsets and waist cinchers but REALLY good ones seem to cost an arm and leg. I also love nicely made garter belts and girdles with thick straps and metal fasteners like the one I'm wearing in the pictures below. So I just need to commit to putting the time and effort into getting a wish list together so people can lavish me with expensive goods . . . hehehe.
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